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Boys Are Such A Bloody Chore

I could actually cry right now. But no, I'm going to put everything into words because once feelings are words they're really not so big and scary anymore. God, I sound like I go to a shrink.
You know when you like someone - really like them, as in you get that feeling in your stomach and can't hold back a smile whenever someone says their name - but they just do not get it?
What can I do, save for throwing myself at him?

I guess I should give a little background information. Even when Emotionally Unitelligent and I were together, I began to like one of his best friends: Sweet Neighbour. He's funny and nice and has the cutest smile and lives nearby and has a weird side like me and is cheeky and... and he's honestly... kind of dumb.
I've gone from Emotionally Unintelligent to Plain Regular Unintelligent
See, we're friends but not close friends and for some reason our conversations on facebook are disappointingly boring, even though I know we have the same sense of humour. I don't know why we don't click - maybe I want us to too badly?
I've been trying my hardest to keep in contact with him yet not be too clingy and forward in case he doesn't feel the same way. Regardless its proving a very difficult task because he always signs off mid-conversation!
At first I put it down to a bad internet connection, but now it seems when he just can't be bothered to talk. And how can I build on a relationship and get something going if we don't even communicate?????

What is the point?
He obviously doesn't think of me that way
So why can't my sensible side take over?
Why am I still thinking about the coulda, woulda, shouldas?
THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING


Fuck me sideways, I hate emotions



J. x